Its tough when you have something bothering you, but your afraid to speak your mind and tell it like it is.
I love Livejournal because I can simply type and express my opinions in a language that is plain and simple to see, read, and understand.
Everyone has addictions, some worse than others.
My addictions aren't nearly as bad as other peoples, but still, an addiction is an addiction and too much of it is a bad thing.
When you don't know where to go, who to turn to, who to tell, or who to trust, its tough to decide which direction I should go in.
Its not about who you know or don't know, the truth is no one knows everything about someone.
Its not a game, its a lifestyle, its not funny, its serious.
When you look back through conversations with people from the past, you do see who is and who isn't a friend.
Its tough to sort through the shit, the good, the bad, the lies, the stories, the fun times, and the bad.
If they say its true that "Everything happens for a reason" is it worth giving up everything for a quick thrill??
When you've had enough of the bullshit that comes and goes from a person or group of people, you delete them and move on.
Its the toughest part of life when you have to make a decision and face the music.
Its always best when you don't care about the outcome, but instead the way it effects your future.
I've been offered a few jobs through the years, some good, some bad, and some I'd never ever go back to.
Its easy to look in the mirror and say this is right and this is wrong, but its easier to decide when your on the toilet and the shit flows where it belongs.
Just like flushing a toilet, there is a delete button that solves the problem and ignorance of the other person.
Its not that I don't like the person, I just fucking hate the person.
Whats worse is its a person I've known for a long time and thought I knew everything about them, but obviously I didn't.
Its not about feelings, because the past 4 month have been brutal. You weather the storm and hope things get better, but the person continues onward.
When enough is enough, its the breaking point, the point of no return.
Some people have direction and goals in their life, but lately I've fallen off course and couldn't figure out which way I wanted to go, but now I see it.
When one offer comes, its pretty cut and dry, everyone has a price, and if the price is right, do it, move on, and take the ball and run with it.
I was offered to become a grocery manager, a job that pays well, but comes with baggage and horseshit headaches and drama.
5 years ago, I probably would have taken the job because it was stress free, simple, and easy. but now, its different.
When I was part time 14 years ago, I was surrounded by my friends, or so I thought I was. As time went on, people left, they went onto bigger better things.
I stayed behind because it was an easy job, easy money, and stress free.
In 2002, I had my first battle with a guy at work, a guy who single handedly changed my life. We had a face to face war or words in front of the store manager.
Since then, I changed my ways, and spent the past 10 years kicking ass, cleaning house, and doing everything in my power to keep a sinking ship afloat.
In 2013, headaches began, more paper work, more of the "do it by the book" bullshit, and more paper work.
I don't give 2 shit about paper work. I signed up to throw food on shelves, not write papers and numbers on clipboards for no one to read.
So I've been on vacation for 1 week, every 3 weeks, and as I approach the mid-point of this 3rd week of vacation, I wonder how much longer I'll stay there.
Everyone knows tension is rising, sales are sinking, and people say things about other people that people make up.
Just remember the past is the past, but you have used it all for what its worth, a simple learning period, to better yourself for the future and next step.
Its to the point where I am simply waiting for a reason to quit or walk out. I've met a lot of great people through the years and wonder how much longer I'll go on.
Life is about being happy, doing what makes you happy, and surrounding yourself with happy people. Everyone I work with is great, but management sucks.
Corporate sucks. Management sucks, the place is a zoo and things are being done backwards and dumbly.
Why should I do 2 jobs when someone else is paid 40 hours a week to put up less than 600 pieces a week???
Change comes when I get back, it'll be swift and quick because my attitude has changed and it's going to be just like old times, where its all about ME!!
I'll be going back to my roots, having fun 24-7, laughing with my friends there, and enjoying the time we have left together!!
When you disagree with upper management and corporation views, its not a healthy environment to work in.
Tomorrow is another day . . . life for today, worry about tomorrow tomorrow!!
- lostways27 -