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Aug. 7th, 2016

Lottery

The most I have won on the lottery is $500 on 5 different scratch tickets.

Tonight, I almost hit Mass Cash for a $100,000 jackpot.

All I had to do was match 5 numbers out of 35.

The quick picks I got were very close.

The winning numbers were 5-10-18-34-35

One line matched the last 2 numbers 34 and 35 exact at the end.

The line below it was close, it had 5-15-19.

Its amazing how close these quick picks came to giving me the jackpot.

$65,000 after taxes would be enough to get me out of where I live right now......

Someday!!

- lostways27 -

Jun. 16th, 2016

Transition

Over the past few months I've made some amazing transitions....

On February 20th, me and a couple of others went to 2 night clubs in Boston after the original one we were looking for called The Dungeon Bar had closed for business. Before Chinatown in October in the middle of the night, it was weird being in Boston again.

On March 12th, I drove a car of strangers and a friend to Mohegan Sun. It was my longest drive ever and out of state too.

On March 26th, I weighed 190 pounds and after seeing a few co-workers go out for surgeries in January, hearing a former grocery manager had a bad form of cancer and wasn't doing well, I knew I had to start someplace.

On May 20th, a friend from work asked me if I wanted to go for a walk. I was hesitant at first, but decided why not, it was associates day and no one would notice because all the deliveries were in. After this first walk, I was committed to change, I began to drink a lot more water, and less soda and watch my daily steps to start a active healthy lifestyle.

On June 6th, I got my first real transfer. I never thought it would happen, but as I am typing this before my 3rd day there, I am loving life and the transitions set forward. I've met some old friends and made a lot of new ones in a short time. Everyone is positive and happy, unlike the sometimes hostile work environment I was in before where a manager was disrupting everything going on and around.

On June 13th, I worked my first day in the new store. It was the hardest to do because I knew nothing. After 16 years in my previous store, I knew everything, I had every answer for every question, and did everything I was asked. It sucks saying no to a customer because I don't know anything, I learn a little each day.

One thing I miss the most about my previous store is the walks on lunch. You don't miss them til there gone, but they were great. I came back from lunch energized and ready to work again. I just wish I started these walks with my friend a year ago because I'd probably be much more healthier now too.

I never use weight as a number, but for the past 10-15 years I was always around 185-195 pounds. Its been over 2 weeks now since I've been lower and I feel better than ever. Every 3 days I get on the scale in the same kind of clothes to get an accurate number, sometimes I wear less to see what a true weight is and do it 3 times to make sure the scale doesn't lie. Its a great feeling when you see the number where you want to see it because your doing all the right things. When I have cheat days and know I have been eating a lot, its ok now because it gives me something to look forward to and build towards.

Like my friend said, goals are reachable when you push yourself in the right direction and stay focused. I want to move up in my company, so this Summer is all about pushed myself harder to be the best I can be at my job, continue living the healthy lifestyle like I have since mid-May, and still maintain the group of friends I usually hang out with and try to grow the group too!!

Change might be a word, but its an impact is you push yourself to do the things you need to do. The power water has had on me has been surreal. Its the key factor in helping me flush the fat and shit and sugar out of my body. Theres a few stubborn areas, but today I got on the scale, I looking in the mirror, and I looked at myself and I'm very happy with how far I've come and its not even a month yet!!

2016 is looking better and better!!

- lostways27 -

Jun. 14th, 2016

Depression and Separation

After a long long first day of walking around a new store full of new people and customers, it was weird working someplace else for the first time in 16 years.

As I grew up, I went to 1 elementary school for 7 years, 1 middle school for 3 years, 1 high school for 4 years, and 1 college for 4 years.

Add those together and its close to the 16 years I was at work.....in 1 building.

Today felt nice and refreshing to visit the place I worked for the past 16 years, say hi to the best people I worked with, walk with my friend who has given me the biggest push to get healthy, and then have lunch with someone who has a job I want to be like.

It sucks the new store is so different because my original store will always be the one that I still shop at. Everyone says a new store is better and more fun, but when its dirty and gross, the original one just feels right to shop at forever and nothing will change that. People come, people go, but comfort of great friends will last forever.

Over the past few weeks, people have left, yesterday another one did too and she's on her final week there. It sucks when good people I drink with move on, but everyone does at some point, especially when they go closer to home.

Friends and memories last forever, new adventures and new people bring new adventures and memories as well in time. FInd happiness there, smile, move on.

- lostways27 -

Jun. 8th, 2016

Goals

Behind every goal is a chaser, behind every chaser is temptation.

Earlier this year, I saw how many of my former co-workers and friends began having health problems. I looked in the mirror and saw the light that I needed to change myself for the better. It sucks to see people die, to get sick, to get hurt, to have health problems, but life goes on. I've struggled with weight all my life, but finally I changed things around and fixed everything wrong with whats been going on around me. I got as high as 207 in High School, but always hated myself and my appearence because of my weight. At the same time, growing up, I was always surrounded by unhealthy products, drinks, snacks, and other foods.

Around the 3rd week in April, I kicked a lot of bad habits. ....
- I was drinking nearly 100 ounces of soda a day (approx a 2 liter and a half) I'd have 3 20 oz Cokes at work and more at home.
- I was eating Peggy Lawton Brownies and Hostess Cup Cakes, and Entemann's products. Now I stopped.
- I'd sit infront of the tv and eat an entire frozen pizza, a bag of chicken, or other oversized portioned items.
- I'd snack, then have a big dinner, and snack again, and have another coke.

5 years ago, a friend told me I have the more unheathy lifestyle and shes shocked I wasn't 400 pounds with the amount of junk food I was eating.

I look at today as a huge huge milestone. Today I got on the scale and it read 175.0. I had to weight myself 3 more times to make sure that number was right because I wasn't believing it at all. It was right. 175.0

When you set goals for yourself and have a positive influence from friends, it makes a huge difference when one friend stands above the rest and pushes you to new levels and new goals. I never ever thought I'd see myself at 175, let alone sustain myself under 180 when I spent the past 18 years around 200.

I look in the mirror and love the results I see, I see myself as starting to look normal. I feel refreshed and better than I have ever felt because I was never inshape or confident about my body or its appearence. Now I love everything I worked for and everything is starting to form and look better and better.

When I set out on this quest in April, I never thought I'd make it this far or take it this serious. 175 was a new goal a friend gave me and I actually reached it. Yea I had a few set backs where I spent $60 on 2 drinks and 3 appetizers at my favorite Chinese food place, and a full pizza 3 days later, but its worked. I lost 5 pounds since last Thursday and feel even better than before.

It shows that when you listen to the right friends and do the right things, anything is possible. Anything is reasonable reachable when you stick to the new goals and path put infront of you.

As I leave 1 store for a new one, I'm going to miss certain people more than others, the hugs, the conversations, the laughs, and the fun, but its like everything else, everything happens for a purpose an goals are reachable when other people push you to achieve them,

175 . . . . never ever thought it was reachable, but it has been reached.

I'll set the next goal of 169, but I'm doubtful I'll reach that because 160 is the final goal, a number still 15 pounds away, but Ive already pushed myself down 10-15 from my old "normal" weight.

Life goes on, but keep those goals and friends with you and push yourself and each other to be better and better everyday!!!

- lostways27 -

Jun. 7th, 2016

Transfered

When you look back in time, there are moments in life that are most impactful, there are moments that bring you back to your younger days, and there are moments when you know its time to move on.

Yesterday at 350pm I got called to the managers office and was informed that I was transfered. Transfers in my company occur on Mondays, so I was kind of expecting it, and once I was called, I waved goodbye to the GM person and said "you'll miss me when I don't come back."

When I started working in 2000, it was a simple high school job. I worked there because my friends did, but as time went on, most of them left and went there own ways, but I remained. Over the course of the past 16 years, I always drove by my high school, and in the past few months said to myself one of these days will be the last. One of these days will be a change of scenary and a different drive. Next Monday, I drive the other way, a way closer to my favorite bars, restaurants, and stores. Its still close, so I can backroad it. In the past month, a co-worker got me into walking. It actually hasn't been too long, it started on May 20th andthe first few walks were past my high school. Living in the same town as I work, I haven't walked around town, or the center, or even past the high school since I left it in 2000, but I did and I guess we can say I finally went full circle, going back to my past in order to get up and get out of my unhealthy ways and branch out and be more active and enjoy life.

So last night at Kings Bowling, everything came back together. It was a great night with a lot of past co-workers and friends. Everyone there was happy, upbeat, surprised, and positive about my transfer, so I wouldn't have had it any other way, to spend time with those who made me who I am today, from past dairy and grocery managers, to admin and corporate suits, and my current circle of hang out get drunk and have fun friends.

I woke up after only 3 hours of sleep, and getting home ar 1145pm, I laid in bed thinking and decided its time to clear my mind and just type.

My ex gf was there last night, and we had a few great chats. Unforunately she told me her dad passed away in April, but it was for the better. She was floored when I told her I got transfered, and told me her other ex no longer works in the company or the store I am going to.

When I look back in life, I see a lot of people come and go, venders, co-workers, and after work friends. Those who make the best impressions and are the most fun are the ones you keep in touch with the most when you leave and the ones you always want to hang out with in future times.

Everything happens for a reason, and this next step is for a purpose. I can't wait to get over to my new store and get started, but also I know its going to be a hard adjustment leaving a place I've worked at since I was in high school. Walking was the jumpstart to get my life on the right track and live a more healthy lifestyle, and now this transfer will help me grow, learn a new place, and eventually be the kick in the ass I need to move out of my house and become more and more independant.

Never forget your past, those in it make you you and stronger everyday!!

- lostways27 -

Jun. 6th, 2016

Change

Change is inevitable, accept it, learn from it

-lostways27

Jun. 4th, 2016

Increases

As the days go by, so to does the chatter I'm getting transfered or promoted.

It sucks that it could come at the expense of another unfortunate misfortune of a former co-worker.

But still the chatter continues .. . .

Monday will be a long interesting day with endless possiblities.

- lostways27 -

Jun. 2nd, 2016

Dreams

Everyone goes through life with hopes and dreams. Like everyone else, I have a lot too, only I take my time and am in no rush to begin mine.

As my journey continues, everyday I get smarter and stronger and learn new things. Every idea from a person I talk to, something I see, or something I have an idea for sticks with me. My dreamhouse would be simple, something 5 or 6 rooms, a full finished gaming area basement, a big yard, maybe on a lake or pond, and a huge yard for a pool, firepit, bbq area, and maybe even some other fun things like a horseshoe pit, swing, tire swing in a chair, or something else.

Every room matters. From the kitchen, with ample sitting for friends or family over, a dinning room for those fancier dinners, a living room or video game room area with a table for other games, maybe even a pool table as well. A bedroom, a guest room for those drunken friends who are too drunk to leave, complete with a trash can, a little bedside vomit collecting bin, and a few other things to keep the drunk locked in and unable to leave or make a mess elsewhere.

A bathroom, simple with a shower/tub, a sink, a potty, a scale, a full length mirror, maybe a window...

Maybe an outdoor hot tub or spa type thing.

A pond of lake for jet ski's or even a boat,

Life is full of hopes and dreams and however you decide to set yours up, use every idea from movies and life experiences to make your own dream ideas come true, but don't rip off an copy someone elses place because they it shows your own lack of creativity.

Every dream takes time, its not done over night, instead, its done over time, but as life changes, so to do design and other ideas involved within the original dream home.

Be yourself, have fun, and others will flock to you and enjoy yours too!!

- lostways27 -

Jun. 1st, 2016

5 years ago today

5 years ago today . . . .

- NHL Stanley Cup Finals Game 1 Bruins at Canucks. Bruins lost.

- Tornadoes in Massachusetts. ....It was a hot day and there was some nasty weather out in the western part of the state. A tornado did a lot of damage in Monsoon and other towns I never heard of.

You look back at the past, but its big events like these that stay in your mind.

Never forget the important dates and events, even if they seem meaningless like these.

- lostways27 -

May. 31st, 2016

Return to a past sportsfield full of memories

Some places in my journeys through life have more meaning than others. Today I took a trip to a baseball soccer field place that I haven't been to in over 20 years. When I grew up, I know all the sportsfields, and loved them all in my own way. Today I drove to it to scope it out. I could have walked to it on lunch at work, but i just wanted to drive there and spend more time at it.

Surrounded by lots of open fields, it was a nice quiet walk by myself. No sidewalks to worry about people in the way, no cars driving by, just flat surfaces, lots of things to see and do, and just overall a relaxing place to enjoy.

No plans for the night, today I took the most steps ever according to my phone of 12638 as of 330pm.

Its a great feeling to finally get healthy and take care of myself again after spending years of just letting myself go and continue those unhealthy ways.

Life gets better with every walk, every experience, and every conversation. Its fun to be alone sometimes, but it sucks sometimes as well.

Its nice to go on a random adventure, to relax and unwind. As I walked for nearly 45 minutes at a fast pace in the sun, I felt myself evolve into a more active person. I could have easily sat on a bench outside work and had greasy chicken, a bag of potato chips, and a bottle of coke, but this new healthy me craves more and more activities and being active.

Its hard to believe I wasted so many years away and I am just now turning that page to the healthy side of life, drinking lots of water, and stayed away from the bad things I used to have every day. Today I did have 4 mini-cupcakes, but it was over a 5 hour span, not all at once.

Change is only as good as I make it to be. Stay active. its hard, but I know I must to maintain the work I've accomplished over the past couple of months.

- lostways27 -

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